Does life have to be all or nothing? Are you selling yourself short if you settle for some rather than none? If you do decide to go with a little, are you going to be hurting more than a little because you know that that you agreed that you can be the one of lesser importance? So what are you telling them or yourself of your worth? Or are you showing that you are being the more loyal, and caring one by trying to stay in touch? But I feel that truly I am a good friend and loyal person. Unless you hurt me or my family too much. But maybe that is just my reality and I am wrong. Do old "friends" ever stand up for there older missed friends, even if it will cause them distress with those they are now closer with? Or is it time to just count your losses and do the grieving that comes with that and move on to ones who can love and appreciate you for you?
What do I want from a friendship?
* One to be loyal. * To be loving. * To be kind. * To be patient.* To be reasonable. * To be accepting. * To not judge. * To be mature.* To be humble. * Too not think what they can get from the relationship, but what they can give. * To remember all the good times and support over the years and not concentrate on the mistakes or bad moments. * To forgive you for not being perfect, because we are all human. * To really try to see your true heartfelt motives.
Maybe I just have to many expectations ,that aren't reasonable. I truly question if this can ever really happen. Not that there won't ever be hard times, because there always will be. But does anyone stick it out for the sake of a friend? A True Friend.
If I only had a the all the answers then I could move on easier. But I think the true answer is it is time to move on, especially when you don't see hope for change. The one to protect is yourself. I need to prove to myself that I am worth it. I deserve more.
Not just what scraps are left over.
