Yaaawwwnnnn!!!!

This Mommy can not get it together this week. Don't know if i am just having a little fibromyalgia flare up with a side of narcolepsy, or what. Gosh I'm a mess. A freakish mess!! lol  

Been so busy lately. Since we have gotten back from our trip from California, it has been nothing but running. Doctor's appointment for the boys, job training with two different companies. So running here to sign stuff and back and forth. Online training.... ufta! Plus just trying to do all my mommy stuff along with the housewife stuff. N-E-who! 

What is on the agenda for today. Well I have decided to buy my man a meat smoker with his bonus. lol Isn't that nice of me. ;) Well since the friendship divorce that happened this past 6 months, it is just one of the things we lost along with all that drama. Urggg!!!! (#@&*&*@#!!!) That is what I think of that. So anyway I found one at Sam's club for a good deal. So we are back in business, people. Yeah!!! Good stuff, can't wait! So i am going to get my creaky bones up and going and will hopefully get back to blogging better than I have been. Lots to fill you in on. ;)

Hmmmmmm........

To go or not to go.? 

I want to go but I have sooooo much to do. And urrrrggg the boys have been little boogers this morning. Do I reward them and go , or punish myself and not go. I don't want to be the grown up anymore. And yah know what?....... I want a raise. This job requires a little more compensation than what this mama is gettin.  Just saying.........

Anywho.....some of you know how much I love Disney, so that could just seal the deal. So once Joshie is back from Lowe's, I think this Mama is gonna go and recharge herself with some yummy coffee with Mrs. Taylor and then take the boys to a princess movie. lol  

Hey it's all good. ;)

My Toothless Wonder!

Oh Mr. Hayden........my little toothless wonder. 

Getting so grown up. My sweet , sweet boy. Mommy has been a little emotional about you mister, mister this week. Watching him grow and thrive as well as he does is such a blessing! He is putting the Awesome in Autism.

So what has triggered all these mommy emotions?

1-No front teeth. Love it...so goofy and adorable. 

2- Watching him with his new cousin, Bailey.

3-Him getting his first grown up suit. He looked all spiffy and grown up. (will have to take pictures)

4-Last but not least, Hayden got 8 stitches last night in his little arm. (not the son I thought would be getting stitches first) ;)  

He was helping Daddy last night working on the house and his cut his arm on a new hammer. He was so brave and sweet. Big ole' teared filled eyes, holding in together more than I would have/did. He was a rockstar in the ER . Let the nurses and Dr. help fix his big owie. Didn't even cry after the first intital big moment at home. 

I remember not even being able to walk into a Dr.'s office without him freaking out, trying to climb the walls if it meant he could leave, total meltdown even if a nurse came close to him. Was insane.  And he was only an toddler. 

What a contrast. Handled himself so well. I would of never thought or imagined that we could of done this. Shows you to never become defeated! Life can and will beat you down ,but just keep plugging  away and you could just be surprised every now and then.  Who would of thought stitches could be sooo meaningful? Go figure.....like I say  ..... no really, it's complicated. ;)

Oh sigh..........

Well it has been a week back in the real life of the Hatzell's.  

Bleck!

Snow and rain and snow and appointments and more appointments and then errands. Oh and now not only am I a mommy of two busy boys, I now have two little jobs. Eeeeks!  My plate has become a platter. Things are tight, so we do what we need to do. Taylor and I working on some "Brother Rules" to manage the boys' behaviour together, to become nicer and more manageable. I am overwhelmed! But I know that it is needed,no really I do. Everything has to start with a plan.  Aghhhh ......why do they give me such grief sometimes?!  I know that they are sweet little boys, that work really hard. But they are ornery little buggers. Parents always get the horrible behaviour more than others. You know what I think about that!? NOT FAIR!!! I want my four yr. old tantrum turn, to lay on the floor and whine and cry. Ha Haa can you imagine? Hey maybe I will do this in front of the boys to show them how ridiculous it is. lol  Oh the joys of parenting. Ufta!! What can I say.......Thanks Taylor for being patient with this crazy little mama.

What can I say.....

I don't want to leave!!!! 

Well we are at the end of our visit. We want to keep it going. :( But all good things have to come to an end. Can't believe that we used to live here. Seems like a lifetime ago. We will leave Saturday or Sunday. Not looking forward to coming home to the snow. Brrr!  Or facing the icky roads. Right know the sun is out and we are probably going to take all the rug rats to the park. My goals before we leave. Stand on the beach and just smell that fresh ocean air. Hopefully see a sea otter and some hummingbirds.  And of course get last miniute cuddles in with the little ones.

 And find a store here that carries some home made stuff that a neat lady makes here in Montery. Her stuff is found at Bird Mafia. Found her on late night cruising around online and realized that she lives in the same town that my mother-in law does. And she has some of her stuff in some shops around here where we are visiting our family. YEAH sooo exciting and how random is that. lol Love how weird little things happen sometime like that.

Here is a little scarf she makes,I hope I can find it in one of these shops.

So off to my treasure hunt. :)   More to come of our visit............ so stay tuned.

Meet Baby Bailey Grace

Bailey Grace

So I know I have not posted much lately.....but we left to come and meet our newest baby in the family. So here we are all the way here in California. And here is the little Miss Bailey Grace. She is such a sweet little thing. Good baby.We are having a nice visit with family and getting lots of baby time in. LOVE IT!!!!! Thanks to all our families, we were able to make it here and be together. Been too long. So we are cherishing our moments with the ones we love, will go to fast but are soo appreciative of the opportunity. Much love to our dear family.

More to come of our visit. Again thank you family for making this happen. :)


Wynter

So true..... So True.

So cruising around on-line is one of my faves. Seeing how talented/crafty people are. Makes me sick!!! But I LOVE it! Check this piece out some one did for a little boys room. I can totally relate. Genius!!!

What a Cool Board for a Boy's Room@ Cottage Hill

Houston...... we could have a problem!

So here is  our cute little girl bunny, Amy. 

(Which Hayden named by the way, Amy is the girl hedgehog off of Sonic of course.)

So she is the second girl addition to our family other than our Miss Foxy Roxie. Because we all know that I would probably have a whole football team  of Autistic Boys before Josh and I would get a baby girl. So I just now buy furry little critter girls for my emotional , maternal , neurotic needs. That is totally another blog.

N-Eway getting sidetracked .......Isn't she sweet?!

Hayden just loves his bunnies.

Here is the other bunny-Buzz

So the other day while I was tending the rabbits I noticed that one of them seemed to have some diarrhea. I know gross, but this story is going somewhere I promise . So I was checking the bunnies bottoms to see if I could tell which one was not feeling well.

And sooooo I pick up our Miss Amy and hmmmmm..........is that......really? I am not sure.......let's check again.........

OH MY WORD....... AMY has testicles!!!!!! 

 I am like 90 % sure. Good grief, Seriously?! How are we going to deal with this one?? Because Hayden is quite taken with the idea that he is a she and she/he is Amy, his favorite girl hedgehog. ( he totally has a animated crush) not quite sure what to think of that, but any who? What to do......I think I might just ignore this "development" for now. I told ya, really It's Complicated. Ufta!

Welcom Baby Natalie!

 

It's a Little Girl!!!

 

So it has been a long time since my last post. Been busy, busy ! 

 

Been sewing a baby quilt. (will post pics later of that) And getting all excited for one of my childhood girlfriends to welcome her first baby. She is finally here and she is sooooo sweet! The littlest thing I have ever seen. They finally got to go home today. Poor Nicole is pretty anemic and so they kept her for a couple more days than usual . She is doing well and daddy also. And of course the baby is amazing! She is soo incredible she makes my ovaries hurt. Ahhhhh.....stupid hormones and all that. But hey I will just kiss and cuddle with her and then go home and get my sleep.  ;) 

New babies are such a true miracle. Hayden of course is in LOVE with this new little one and he was pretty worried about his Nikki. :) He is so sweet. My tender hearted big boy. Anyway so happy for Nicole and Chad and their new addition. Congrats!!! And we love all of you.  

 

Gotta love Oprah!

The Sound of Music 45th Reunion!!!!

 Oh my....... the simple joys of life. I grew up with older movies, mostly musicals. My mother and grandmother definitely gave me my love for these. What is better than a genuinely pure family movie like The Sound of Music? Classic.

And what better than a reunion show. Love It!!!!! So don't know what we are going to do without Oprah. Ufta....can't think of that right now. Ahhhh the anxiety!!!  But this was one of my days highlights. Oh the warm fuzzies..... hmmmmm

 And Julie Andrews. I love HER!!!!  Her talent is amazing! And she soo beautiful! Love Mary Poppins also, here is a picture of her after winning an Oscar for her role in Mary Poppins. I believe she may have been 26/27 yrs. old. Too cute!

Oh I like it......

Found these cute little silhouette pictures on Etsy. nelladesigns 

Would love to get the little boy one for the boy's bathroom. How cute would that be.

OMG....... Finally!!!!!

OH MY ......The Excitement!!!!!! I have 1 whole official follower. Seriously I am soooo excited. I love that someone that I don't know liked my blog enough to sign up to hear about my obsessions and rants. Some of my family doesn't  even love me that much. LOL!! jk ;)  Too much!! Okay off to wash material to start sewing a baby quilt. And again to my one official follower, Thank You for making my day. :)

All or Nothing?

Does life have to be all or nothing? Are you selling yourself short if you settle for some rather than none? If you do decide to go with a little, are you going to be hurting more than a little because you know that that you agreed that you can be the one of lesser importance?  So what are you telling them or yourself of your worth? Or are you showing that you are being the more loyal, and caring one by trying to stay in touch? But I feel that truly I am a good friend and loyal person. Unless you hurt me or my family too much. But maybe that is just my reality and I am wrong. Do old "friends" ever stand up for there older missed friends, even if it will cause them distress with those they are now closer with? Or is it time to just count your losses and do the grieving that comes with that and move on to ones who can love and appreciate you for you?   

 What do I want from a friendship?

   

* One to be loyal. * To be loving. * To be kind. * To be patient.* To be reasonable. * To be accepting. * To not judge. * To be mature.* To be humble. * Too not think what they can get from the relationship, but what they can give. * To remember all the good times and support over the years and not concentrate on the mistakes or bad moments. * To forgive you for not being perfect, because we are all human. * To really try to see your true heartfelt motives.

Maybe I just have to many expectations ,that aren't reasonable. I truly question if this can ever really happen. Not that there won't ever be hard times, because there always will be. But does anyone stick it out for the sake of a friend? A True Friend.  

If I only had a the all the answers then I could move on easier.  But I think the true answer is it is time to move on,  especially when you don't see hope for change. The one to protect is yourself.  I need to prove to myself that I am worth it. I deserve more. 

Not just what scraps are left over.

Extra....Extra..... read all about it . Hudson is Our Local Celebrity

 Surprize, Surprize!!!! 

Our Hudson is Famous!

So on Wednesday Surprise! Hudson was in the local paper . 

We did the interview and pictures last week, but we forgot to ask when it was going to be printed. So on Wednesday ......wallah there it is.  Mr. Hudson Hatzell 'Putting the Awesome in Autism'.  (Cheesy little saying I came up with awhile ago. lol)

Love the pictures of him and Paula.  Me however thank goodness it's blurred. Just remember the camera adds 20 pounds. Eeeeks. Wow! N-Eway the article turned out great! So excited for Easter Seals, and so happy to have known Paula as long as we have. She is truly a gem. Love her!

Notice Hudson's hand. Signing 'I love you'. Total mistake....but neat.

So take a look at the article. Turned out nice. Excited for the Open House,it will be cool to be there and see what Paula and everyone at Easter Seals has been working hard for. The more help, families can get the better. Feel so fortunate to be near a place that has been able to guide us through our ever going journey with our boys.


Easter Seals-Goodwill expands services: "- Sent using Google Toolbar"

Warm Comfort.....

Today all my boys are either sick or getting sick. So what better that a big warm pot of Soup. Soup always reminds me of my Mom. It's one of her favorite things. Nothing better than a house smelling of soup on a rainy fall day.

"Soup is cuisine's kindest course.  It breathes reassurance; it steams consolation; after a weary day it promotes sociability, as the five o'clock cup of tea or the cocktail hour."
Louis P. De Gouy, 'The Soup Book' (1949)

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Today's Positive and Today's Negative

 * Today's Positive Moment    *

 * Cuddling with this Hunk and sharing a delish Carmel Macchiato together in his blue blankie. Move over Joshie....There is a new man in town! XOXO *  ;) Luv him!!!

Little Mr. Poe

*Today's Negative Moment/Discovery*

* My wonderful little house plants.......HAVE FUNGUS GNATS!!!!! And they have breed! There is the most disgusting little worms in my new miracle grow soil. GROSS!!Time to pull out the big guns, I will be purchasing chemicals to rid you of my life. { Man if that would only work for some people. hee hee :) 

GROSS!!

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Bleck!!!

So this little complicated , crazy,roller coaster that is my life.....bleck. Having a blah day. Last couple of days  with the boys have been  particularly difficult . Arrrggg!!! We do so well for so long and then, HEY road bump!!!!! Why? Who the heck knows.  

Hudson is still refusing to go poop in the toilet, he wet his pants twice yesterday.(which he doesn't do usually) I think in the last 5 days I have been bit 6 times. And the constant screaming and demands are about to drive me to my early grave. I hear him at night twisting and turning and grumbling so I know that he is not sleeping well .Again why? Today he cried and didn't want to go to school. Had to put him on the bus. He loves school and the bus. What gives?

Hayden on the other end of the spectrum has been a little booger also. Yesterday I took him to  pioneer park to see his friend Nicholas, that he has been bugging me to see sooo much lately, what does he do?  FREAKS on me at the park. Full fledged meltdown screaming flaying on the ground, crying like I am the worst mother in the world. Why? All for his current obsession for the little monopoly tickets at his favorite place-Mc Donalds. Good Sweet Lord!!!  What triggered this meltdown that lasted at least 30 mins in plan view in a public park. Nicholas had a Happy Meal from McD's. Oh holy Hannah the water gates were opened. Did he recover? Well as good as Hayden usually does. Whole night.....we were on edge!  Last meltdown of the day, he closed himself in the closet refusing to take his medicine. 20 mins of negotiations. Ufta! 

What bothers me the most. The unpredictability of what my day is going to contain. I'm I going to have to be in full fledge Mommy Combat today or are we going to functions fairly well? If I knew, then I could prepare my mind. The constant uncertainty from day to day or even hour to hour is exhausting.  

 But hey what are ya going to do? Bleck!!!! 

 P.S-  By the way I am just joking with the pics. ;) 

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Soooooo Sorry!!!!!

Apparently I am blog illiterate . I swear I think that I have my blog open for everyone to see and then when I check it is sometimes marked private.  Arrgggg!!! I will get this figured out. Please bear with me. Heee Heee....like the Title of my blog. No Really.....It's Complicated. Ha.  Oh bother!

Roxie's Cozy Hoodie

Here is Miss Foxy Roxie........ However I don't think she is really digging her Fab new "DogGone Gorgeous" fleece Hoodie.
She is too cute. Gotta luv her!!!!!

My Sweet Boys

"I count it a PRIVILEGE to kiss my children GOODNIGHT at the close of every day."-Unknown

Mother ,Daughter Date

My Mom and Me in front of the Doll Museum

 So a couple of weekends ago, my mother and I went on a Date!! Yea, adult conversation, Doll museum tour, little shopping, good food and a GREAT 70's tribute concert , ABBA! WaHoo!!!! Got to love the 70's. I know that I do. Had a blast. Thanks Mom!!! 

So I introduced my mother to my new obsession, Blogging. So you know once you start you want to take pictures of everything. I mean everything! I love people watching anyway, but now I want to take pictures of all the great characters out there. I love how everyone is different and unique. And sometimes pretty "special". ;) Josh always has said that I am going to get shot one of these days for staring, (or what I call people watching). But know that it is on a whole new level involving a camera, well......he could be right. Heee Heee Hope not. Just call me the Billings Paparazzi. lol So I am now going to share some of the wonderful people I saw at the ABBA concert. I am so excited!!!!  
                                                         

ABBA's  Biggest Fan

                                                                     

      Here is my new Friend I meet  that night, he LOVES 

ABBA and he has all of their songs. He was really 

hoping to meet the performers to get autographs.  

My mom and I wondered about him all night ,

      wondering if he was dancing and enjoying himself.    

Loved him!  Too cute.

This Grandma was definitely a Dancing Queen...
Tooo Cute!

Some Groovy Gals

          Now I love his outfit and attitude. CLASSIC!
           Bet he was quite the swinger/stud in his day.
                          Rockin the baby blue suit! 

All in all a great day with my Mom. I will post more on of the Doll Museum later. Happy Blogging.